Through The Glass Darkly

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, and when I say a lot, I mean a ton!  About three weeks ago, we sent our mission team to Bela Bela, South Africa, and not that I am unsupportive of spreading the Gospel, but I was bummed, and honestly, my attitude was not 100%.  When I questioned myself as to why my attitude was semi-raunchy, what I discovered was that I was bummed because most of my friends were on the mission team, and were now out of state for a short time.  Plus, Satan was whispering in my ear, causing me to feel like some on the mission team thought that they were entitled to go.  However, after I realized te error in my ways, I corrected my attitude with the Lord’s help.

The Lord knew I was going to be lonely.  Sunday, the day after our mission team left, I made a new friend.  Her mom has terminal brain cancer, and with in the last week, she has really opened up to me, saying she is concerned with how her dad is burned out with caring for her mom, although she understands why he does not take a break.  He wants to spend every minute that he can with her because she may no longer be here that much longer, AND he is scared to trust anyone…even if the help is offered.

I myself, am working on trust issues due to being hurt multiple times.  Truthfully, I do not really care for my story.  I have in the past, questioned why my story IS my story, but now, after making a new friend, and talking to her for several hours this entire this week while the Africa team was out, I am beginning to see through a glass darkly, and am beginning to understand why my story IS my story.  Because of my background, and the help I have received to move on, I am able to offer some insight as to why people are feeling the way they do, and “acting the way they are”…like with my friend’s dad.

Conclusion:  The Lord Is Awesome!!!!